Personal Development Cards

Phoenix Tarot

After computing my birthday’s month, day & year… I ended up with 4 (The Emperor) as a representation of both my personality and soul card.  The Death card represents the Hidden Factor in my birthday. I came up with this using Mary Greer’s table in her book “Tarot Constellations”. After age 30, this hidden factor will be renamed the teacher card. I’m glad I found out about this before I even got there. The Temperance is my year card for 2009. I know it’s almost over but it’s still worth mentioning.

The Emperor in this deck is my primary reason why I bought this deck.  I’ve been browsing decks online (multiply and albideuter) but it’s hard to find a pleasing and attractive Emperor.  Most of them look stiff, angry-looking and clothed.  LOL.  This guy, on the other hand, is sexy and exudes attitude and confidence.  He is half-naked and has nothing to hide.  He is a proud Emperor.

I heard someone say before, “Real men wear pink.”.  Well this emperor is just that.  He is comfortable with his sexuality/masculinity.  He sits in his throne with pride.  We can see an image of a ram in his throne.  This symbolizes the astrological sign Aries.  He is the first sign of the zodiac, also known as the “House of Self”.  To quote an astrology site, “This is the field of experience in which an individual is challenged to develop his or her own unique personality and present it to the world.”. And as a spiritual goal, Aries is about learning the meaning of selfless love.

The Death card is my Hidden Factor or my Teacher card.  Like my personality and soul card, this card will be forever.  The picture is very simple.  It shows a hooded skeleton with a scythe at hand. He is smirking and he is getting ready to strike. If he can talk, he probably would say, “You’ll thank me after this is over.”.  This card is about ending something old and ugly so we can free up space for new and better experiences.  I guess this applies to everybody, but each and everyone of us have mini-deaths in our life time.  You finish high school so you can start college.  You leave your parents and start to live independently.  You quit a job to find a better  one.  At this point in my life, I can say a number of endings and new beginnings.  It’s just a part of life.

The Temperance shows a lady pouring liquid from two cups into one big cup.  One cup holds a red liquid, while the other one holds a blue one.  What is she trying to do here?  She is evenly mixing the two things together.  This takes time, practice and effort.  If done correctly, the result will be perfect.  This card is all about moderation and balance.  This is a solution to problems such as disagreements or clashing beliefs.  It may signify communication or taking time to understand one another.  This year has been like that to me.  My relatives and I had a few disagreements and sometimes the only way to agree is to disagree.  We just have to work out our differences and find a way to keep the relationship.

I’m really glad I discovered tarot because I feel connected once again.  I feel connected with my spirit guides, my angels, the universe and I can understand things better now.  I still have a lot to learn from symbols, numbers and zodiac signs but what I know so far is enough.  I can’t wait to explore more.

Deck:  Phoenix Tarot by Paola Angelotti



Knight of Wands

Knight of Wands - Phoenix Tarot

I think Victoria’s Secret just puked in this card.  It’s so pink!

In the Phoenix Tarot, we can see the Knight of Wands in full action.  He’s riding a red horse with no saddle, harness or any safety accessory.  He is very brave.  The color red symbolizes his strong drive or passion to succeed.

This knight is also the opposite of the Knight of Pentacles.  He is quick and cunning.  He is the go getter of all the knights and no challenge is hard enough for him.  He acts in haste and doesn’t second guess his moves and decisions.

The card implies that this knight is jousting with someone else.  His position with his lance seems to show that he is in the offense.  While we see some aggression in this card, I noticed that he is not looking in front of him.  In my interpretation, this suggests that he’s not thinking of the outcome of his actions.  He trusts and relies mainly on his instincts.

I can definitely see the “Impulsiveness” quality of this knight.  I think I know what this is referring to.  It’s my unstoppable interest in buying tarot decks!  Oh my gosh!  Someone please buy that Bohemian Gothic in the Trading Section (in AE) now before I lose control!

Deck:  Phoenix Tarot by Paola Angelotti

The Colorful One

The Devil

The Devil - Phoenix Tarot

Here is Paola Angelotti’s meaning for The Devil:

Evil influences, depression or bad dreams are indicated by this card. Beware of the malice of others and the negative feelings in everyone’s heart. Rid yourself of unhealthy anxieties and learn from your adversities so that you may free yourself from their bonds.

I can totally relate to the negative energies of today. My room was not crazy busy but the people I worked with today was a bit condescending. Nobody likes being unappreciated. It’s so hard not to think and feel negative vibes when you encounter these things.

Another thing that bothered me today was that computer test about BLS.  My recruiter surprised me and told me that I had to take it today.  I didn’t even have time to review for it.  Although I passed the first part, the second part was not exactly easy.  I have to go back and finish that test tomorrow.

I can’t help but notice the erection the devil is having in this card.  He seems to be aroused by our weaknesses and low points.  This just reminds me that I need to be stronger.  I need to show him who’s the boss and that I cannot be easily intimidated by challenges.

In the background, we see lightning bolts.  This is a sign that he can be the cause of the destruction in The Tower card.  I didn’t get that card today but if I don’t keep myself together, I might end up getting that card.

I’m curious about the star enclosing his face. I wonder if it suggests the “Pentacle” (A Pagan symbol for the elements and the spirit).  This may indicate that the devil is present in different aspects of our lives and that we need awareness to fight it.

Deck:  Phoenix Tarot by Paola Angelotti

A New Friend

Knight of Cups

Knight of Cups - Phoenix Tarot

My tarot card of the day is the Knight of Cups. He jumped out of the deck while I was shuffling this morning.

Here is the meaning given by Paola Angelotti herself:

He’s an ardent lover and dreamer, a passionate suitor who may bring an invitation or proposition or a message of love. It may represent a boy with brown hair and blue or hazel eyes.

It’s funny how there is a physical description of this card. A guy with a brown hair and hazel eyes. Sounds like Patrick. LOL. Well today, he invited me to hang out with his friend from Texas.  They came to visit me in my apartment and we watched “V” (The alien/sci-fi show). He brought me some Thai food for dinner too. It was very sweet of him.  Anyway, this card gave me a whole new understanding for the Knight of Cups.  A new friend is on its way!


This is out of the topic, but I lost my car key tonight. It was very annoying and I was actually having a hard time entertaining his friend because of this. I kept looking everywhere, including the trash, the sofa, the parking garage, everywhere! It was embarrassing to his friend because my mind is not at the present… they even helped look inside the apartment. In my despair, I went inside my room and opened my book “Everyday Magic” by Dorothy Morrison and surreptitiously casted a quick location spell. When I got out, they invited me to get some frozen yogurt but I declined and told them that I can’t possibly focus while my key is lost. I’m afraid that someone might find it and drive away with it.

So I said my good byes and closed the door. After a few seconds, they knocked again. When I opened, they have found it! His friend accidentally found it. He was texting someone with his phone, and while looking down, he saw a key sticking in the garden just outside my apartment. I thought I must’ve dropped it while I picked up the mail this afternoon. Very odd indeed. But I’m glad my spell worked! I miss doing spells…

Deck:  Phoenix Tarot by Paola Angelotti

Number 7

7 of Cups

7 of Cups - Phoenix Tarot

The 7 of Cups is about fantasy and day-dreaming. Since I’m working with unillustrated pips again, I’m going to free-associate this with the traditional RWS meaning, numerology, and what the possible picture is showing.

In The Phoenix Tarot, there are seven cups, all upright and receiving a shower of water coming out from the flower above them.  In Paola Angelotti’s website, this is her meaning for this card:

“Take a good, realistic look at the situation, for this card warns of delusions and false hopes. Things are not what you iagine them to be and you would be better served by seeing things for what they are,not what they appear to be.”

I wonder if this card is warning me of people around me? Co-workers perhaps?  It’s hard to say because I’m new to the area but I better be careful with my surroundings I guess.  Today, I’m rotating to a different floor and some people are already warning me to be extra careful because I’m working with a lot of new graduates.  I have to let go of the notion that all the people I work with are strong and experienced.  I have to be vigilant and be more observant of the standards.  I have to keep my eye open all the time.

In the book “Numerology for Beginners” by Gerie Bauer, the number 7 suggests relaxation and meditation.  One must give time to himself and think about what is at hand (problems, goals, etc.).  In the tarot, my understanding of the number seven is that it talks about temptations and challenges.  So by connecting these meanings, it could mean taking some quiet time for himself to sort out the chaos or problems that are bothering us.  This is a useful advice for me, because I’ve been slacking on my hands-on session (radiance technique) due to my tight work schedule.  I need to make some changes soon (and that also goes to my sleeping and waking times).

Deck:  Phoenix Tarot by Paola Angelotti



4 of Pentacles - Phoenix Tarot

Very interesting card draw tonight. I was just reading Deviant Moon’s latest blog entry and it’s about the 4 of pentacles. Anyway, this card basically talks about the miser. I googled the term and this is what I got from wikipedia:

A miser or cheapskate is a person who is reluctant to spend money, sometimes to the point of forgoing even basic comforts. The term derives from the Latin miser, meaning “poor” or “wretched,” comparable to the modern word “miserable”.

I actually laughed when I drew this card because this is how I would exactly describe my day today. Patrick got us a ticket for the movie “2012” at Arclight Theaters (one of the best theaters in LA). He also treated me for dinner tonight. And to top it off, my favorite new age store here had a 20% Holiday Sale this weekend… and with my KCRW Fringe Benefits card, they added 10% making a total of 30% off on my purchases. I didn’t buy much though. I was hoping to get a miniature statue of Goddess Fortuna but it was already gone. So all I bought was a Thoth companion book and a pack of lavender incense. I was tempted to buy a tarot deck too but they didn’t have a stock of “Druidcraft Tarot”.

All in all, this day was totally fun and lots of savings too. Can’t believe it’s Monday again tomorrow. Anyway, I’m off to sleep… good night!

Deck: Phoenix Tarot by Paola Angelotti

Change of Plans


First thing I’ve noticed in this spread is that they all have a body of water surrounding them.  So this spread is probably dealing with emotions, feelings and relationships.  I also noticed that the Queen of Cups is turning her back to the other two cards.  The Six of Swords and the Eight of Cups seem to be leaving and going somewhere else.

It may sound odd but I associate myself with the Queen of Cups. I’m very much in touch with my emotions. I’m caring, sensitive and moody at times.  So in this case, I decided to put myself in this interpretation.

The Six of Swords is about leaving the difficulties behind and going somewhere safer.  We do not see the faces of the people here so it’s hard to know what the emotions are.  But their posture says a lot.  Their backs are slouched and their heads are kept down.  It seems like they have experienced something bad but they are now saved by the ferryman.  This card is also interpreted as travel (or maybe driving around).  Hmmm… well, I’m going with Patrick to Encino to watch a movie with friends… so maybe this is what the cards are telling me.

The Eight of Cups is about leaving something known or familiar and exploring something new or unknown.  For me, it may also mean turning something down or changing my plans to something better.  I didn’t expect this, but Pat and I decided to cancel our dinner plan with friends tonight.  We thought we’ll just do something responsible around the apartment instead.  Well, he did laundry… I blogged.  =D  We also canceled the brunch for tomorrow with Brian because we want to sleep late tomorrow.  We just over-booked ourselves this weekend with social stuff and it seems too much.  But everybody was okay with us re-scheduling so that’s cool.